Your yoga teacher is mentally ill

"You will ultimately have to let go of all your self-images to be free." - Christopher Wallis Yesterday, I went for a run, and when I arrived back to my apartment my hands, arms, and legs began to shake. Exercise-induced anxiety is what they call it. Supposedly, it's fairly common. We over (or under) breathe, … Continue reading Your yoga teacher is mentally ill

Unhooking Yourself

“I stand in the way of the things I can be.” ― Moby This week I drove to Lake Fayetteville for a run, and as I pulled out my phone to start my running playlist, I saw an email notification with the first few words of a message.  In the few seconds I took to read it, … Continue reading Unhooking Yourself

Helplessness Blues

Lately, I've been thinking of that poster that hangs in a lot of elementary classrooms: "Before you speak: Is it true? Is it necessary? Is it kind?" This election touched a big nerve with me, as it did for a lot of people regardless of political beliefs, and I've been doing a lot of breathing and … Continue reading Helplessness Blues

Trauma-informed yoga isn’t what you think

I don't like to talk about "issues of the day" on my little space on the internet.  I write about me, because once I start writing about "you" or "them" I travel back to self-righteous indignation town.  I used to be the mayor of that place, and it wasn't pretty.   This will be one of my rare … Continue reading Trauma-informed yoga isn’t what you think

One Whole System

This morning I awoke to some very similar physical symptoms. My eyes and face are swollen, dull headache, and my muscles are sore. I had ten hours of sleep, and I am still very tired. These are all the markers of my particular brand of the "TIMBo hangover." I have finished another four intense days … Continue reading One Whole System

Meet Me On The Other Side of the Street

Last year, I was finishing my facilitator training with TIMBo and preparing to facilitate my first group.  I didn't do much marketing for it other than writing this very long email to the yoga studio about "my story."  Frankly, after I wrote it and sent it out I wanted to hide under a rock.  I just … Continue reading Meet Me On The Other Side of the Street

Overexposure

“Faith is the bird that feels the light and sings when the dawn is still dark.” -  Rabindranath Tagore For the past five years, the whole month of February I am weepy.  I don't get out much other than to do the essentials like teaching or grocery shopping.  I notice that I spend many hours on the couch watching … Continue reading Overexposure

It Defined You

I remember sitting in my first TIMBo facilitator training pouring my heart out about my past and making the declaration, "I know that this experience doesn't define me." A trainer stopped me, "But, it DID define you.  You can't have that experience and it NOT shape you...and that's a good thing." My brain recognized this … Continue reading It Defined You

The Skin We Are In

It's summer, and the clothes are coming off.  If you are feeling a little body acceptance challenged, a harmless pool party or trip to the beach can turn into a day (or more) of feeling anxious, inadequate, and isolated.  I have spent a lifetime hating myself and how I looked, but when I reached the age of … Continue reading The Skin We Are In

Are We There Yet?

“We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of … Continue reading Are We There Yet?