"You will ultimately have to let go of all your self-images to be free." - Christopher Wallis Yesterday, I went for a run, and when I arrived back to my apartment my hands, arms, and legs began to shake. Exercise-induced anxiety is what they call it. Supposedly, it's fairly common. We over (or under) breathe, … Continue reading Your yoga teacher is mentally ill
"All beings are Shiva, in relative degrees of self-concealment or self-revelation." - Christopher Wallis from Tantra Illuminated A few months ago, I did my usual early morning shuffle into the bathroom. I bent down to pull the bathroom scale out of it's hiding place only to find it wasn't there. I panicked. My husband must have … Continue reading Bury or Heal
"The truth is, women are people and should be treated as such, with time out for physiological interferences..." - Amy Vanderbilt, Amy Vanderbilt's Etiquette (1952) Do you remember those drug commercials for Sarafem, a "new" treatment of PMDD? (That's pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder. It's like PMS...but...well...worse.) I remember the commercial featured a woman trying to pull a stuck shopping … Continue reading There’s No Cure for Menstrual Rage
"This is the real work: every part of you that has been exiled, condemned, rejected or walled off needs to be brought close, needs to be brought right into the heart, and allowed to merge into the light of loving awareness." - Christopher Wallis "Are you excited about your move?" I get asked this question … Continue reading All at Once
"Come in here, and let me show you how to be a good wife." When I was a kid, my Dad would call me into the kitchen every weekend to help him cook. Looking back on this now, I know was highly misogynist. My brothers were never required to stir macaroni. They never were scolded for lifting … Continue reading How to Be Good
During the winter, there's a lot more people poking around my apartment complex. The landlord has a team of friendly snow removing gentlemen who shovel the stairs and plow the parking lots. Although, I really appreciate the dudes who make my world much easier to traverse, they make me nervous. I can hear them plodding up the … Continue reading The Safety You Seek
I don't feel like it. Upon rising from my alarm, it was the first thing that popped into my head yesterday morning. I didn't want to go for a run like I had planned. I didn't want to go to my doctor appointment. I didn't want to leave my home. Why? I don't feel like … Continue reading Cure for the “I Don’t Feel Like It”s
"Get action. Do things; be sane, don't fritter away your time; create, act, take a place wherever you are and be somebody; get action." - Theodore Roosevelt When I first heard that Teddy Roosevelt quote, I responded with a hearty, "Hell Yeah!" After all, the "Get action. Be sane." philosophy has largely guided my decision making … Continue reading Get Still. Do Nothing.