So, I know in the last post I said that I was doing my WeCroak app inspired writings everyday, and you haven't seen much. That's because it's all been taking place on my email list. I'll put them up here on a three day delay. Just so you know, I tend to take out certain … Continue reading WeCroak, Day 2: A Touching Career
"When disturbed by negative thoughts, opposite (positive) ones should be thought of. This is pratipaksha bhavana." - Patanjali's Yoga Sutras, 2.33, J. Carrera In 2008, my dad was laid off. He was just another victim of the economic crunch that year. His company, involved in cotton trade, laid off a lot of the "old … Continue reading It Has to Be
The week after my husband's grandmother and our cat died, we started an herb garden. I know how healing it can be to get your hands in some dirt, and it was something that helped me when my father passed. It didn't matter how down I felt, or where I was in my own grieving process, being around … Continue reading There’s a Lesson in there Somewhere
Two weeks ago we had to put down our sixteen year old cat, Milly. One thing that makes this particular loss hard is my own beliefs about it. I notice having thoughts like, "Well, she wasn't a person." I'm trying to talk myself out of grieving for that old kitty. It's quite possible that trying to talk myself … Continue reading Holding on and Saying Nothing
"Anger leads to clouding of judgment, which results in bewilderment of the memory. When the memory is bewildered, the intellect gets destroyed; and when the intellect is destroyed, one is ruined. " - The Bhagavad Gita, 2.63 I am angry. I am angry because that feels better than being hopelessly sad. I'm left with the same … Continue reading The Yoga of Outrage
Last year, I was finishing my facilitator training with TIMBo and preparing to facilitate my first group. I didn't do much marketing for it other than writing this very long email to the yoga studio about "my story." Frankly, after I wrote it and sent it out I wanted to hide under a rock. I just … Continue reading Meet Me On The Other Side of the Street
“Faith is the bird that feels the light and sings when the dawn is still dark.” - Rabindranath Tagore For the past five years, the whole month of February I am weepy. I don't get out much other than to do the essentials like teaching or grocery shopping. I notice that I spend many hours on the couch watching … Continue reading Overexposure
"Well, there's a rose in a fisted glove..." - Stephen Stills From the age 19 until about 27, I lived alone, and I liked it. I didn't particularly like being around people for long periods of time, and I was perfectly okay with that. Around 2011, when my then-boyfriend, now-husband and I decided we should try … Continue reading Love the One You’re With
Last week, I was making coffee so that my brain could function for my 5:45 am class, and I had the thought, "I don't feel right. I can't do anything until I feel right." My mind started to claw and concoct ways to get out of every obligation. I gazed down at my planner, and … Continue reading So Many Stories. Just Enough Time.
“We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of … Continue reading Are We There Yet?