We Croak Day 5: The Adult in the Room

After all the ups and downs yesterday, it was hard to sleep last night.  I was exhausted, but also simultaneously super wound up.  I tossed and turned all night. I've been writing this month kind of inspired by contemplating death, and yesterday my autonomic nervous system (the thing that's supposed to keep us alive) was … Continue reading We Croak Day 5: The Adult in the Room

Trauma-sensitive yoga isn’t a style.  It’s a skill set.

Around three years ago, I had just finished my first yoga class at a women's shelter in New Hampshire.  I had meticulously planned a "trauma-informed" yoga class for the women there.  I used all of my knowledge and training with the TIMBo program, plus some additions that I found helpful to me in my own … Continue reading Trauma-sensitive yoga isn’t a style.  It’s a skill set.

Your yoga teacher is mentally ill

"You will ultimately have to let go of all your self-images to be free." - Christopher Wallis Yesterday, I went for a run, and when I arrived back to my apartment my hands, arms, and legs began to shake. Exercise-induced anxiety is what they call it. Supposedly, it's fairly common. We over (or under) breathe, … Continue reading Your yoga teacher is mentally ill

Unhooking Yourself

“I stand in the way of the things I can be.” ― Moby This week I drove to Lake Fayetteville for a run, and as I pulled out my phone to start my running playlist, I saw an email notification with the first few words of a message.  In the few seconds I took to read it, … Continue reading Unhooking Yourself

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Bury or Heal

"All beings are Shiva, in relative degrees of self-concealment or self-revelation." - Christopher Wallis from Tantra Illuminated A few months ago, I did my usual early morning shuffle into the bathroom.  I bent down to pull the bathroom scale out of it's hiding place only to find it wasn't there.   I panicked.  My husband must have … Continue reading Bury or Heal

There’s No Cure for Menstrual Rage

"The truth is, women are people and should be treated as such, with time out for physiological interferences..." - Amy Vanderbilt, Amy Vanderbilt's Etiquette (1952) Do you remember those drug commercials for Sarafem, a "new" treatment of PMDD?  (That's pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder.  It's like PMS...but...well...worse.)  I remember the commercial featured a woman trying to pull a stuck shopping … Continue reading There’s No Cure for Menstrual Rage

It Has to Be

"When disturbed by negative thoughts, opposite (positive) ones should be thought of.  This is pratipaksha bhavana." -   Patanjali's Yoga Sutras, 2.33,  J. Carrera In 2008, my dad was laid off.  He was just another victim of the economic crunch that year.  His company, involved in cotton trade, laid off a lot of the "old … Continue reading It Has to Be

The Audacity to Rise Again

"Get down.  You're going to fall." Mentally, I was somewhere far away, and hearing these words snapped me back into the present.  I looked across my mother's living room, to see my three year old niece crawling on a dining chair.  The look on little Cora's face with a slightly raised eyebrow said it all.  She was pretty … Continue reading The Audacity to Rise Again

Almost Yellow Leaves

"Perhaps everything terrible is in its deepest being something helpless that wants help from us." - Rainer Maria Rilke A few days ago, I looked outside our bedroom window and gasped, "No!"  You would think that something really horrible happened, but I just noticed that the leaves on one of the trees had begun to … Continue reading Almost Yellow Leaves