I am an aspiring yogini.  I have wanted to take a yoga teacher training for years, but I never have.  I was too scared to ask off work.  I didn’t think I was fit enough.  I didn’t think I was thin enough.  I was afraid people would think I was crazy, a hippie, unrealistic, or a fool.  I didn’t want to be a fat yoga teacher.  Please understand.  There is nothing wrong with being an overweight yoga teacher.  I just know that to be one, I would have to be strong.  I would have to look people in the eye and see judgment and criticism and not have any of my own.  I didn’t have the guts.

I came to the realization today that I have constantly used my body as a road block, and my body became very proficient at being one.  I just stayed in this constant cycle of self-loathing and self-destruction.  The only way out of the cycle is to start a new one:  a cycle of self-care and admiration.  I’ve reached a time in my life where I am so tired of the fears and excuses that I am willing to look each one in the eye and see them for what they are.  They are just old habits. Today, I took the plunge.  I put down a deposit for a yoga teacher training.  I don’t know what size yoga instructor I will be, but I do know I will be a woman who used her body to face her fears.  It’s the best good habit to have.

What do you use your body for?

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